Monday, May 17, 2010

Sad

My mood this Monday morning is toeing the "bummed" line, wavering between actual local sadnesses and crises and occasionally veering out into "let's surf the internet and find out what WORSE things could be happening and then imagine them and weep." Occasionally I'm foraying into mad territory--sometimes life steps in and fucks up all your plans and there's nothing you can do about it! This sucks!--and then also into the more midlife crisis-y "so you wanted to be a ranger at Yellowstone National Park and raise your kids to happily roam the woods AND be fluent in Spanish AND physically close to all of the important relatives and look how things turned out instead"--which upon examination looks less like a "life interfered with my dreams" crisis and more of a "reality interfered with my dreams."

Which doesn't actually make the non-actualization of those dreams any less bitter. Plus, there are the actual local sadnesses and crises, none of which are new but which are kind of wearing me down right now.

Anyhow. Apparently it's Monday or something. (*signficant glance at sulking self*)

4 comments:

artemisia said...

Oh, honey. You definitely sound like you are having a rough time. I am sorry. I do hope you come out of soon.

Is the weather nice? We actually have a spring day up our way! Maybe take a walk with the kids?

Thinking of you.

Melospiza said...

Thanks! (*sniff*)

The weather is helping, even if a teeny part of me is trying to hold on to the "everything is awwwwful" mood.

Kate said...

Aw... Sorry to hear you're all sniffy and sad. Perhaps it's the weather. I've been in a foul mood for several days now. Here's hoping things improve soon. And, it is quite alright to sulk!

PS: On the lighter side, I think you've nailed a best seller self-help book title. The NY Times would be all over this! 'When Life Steps In & Fucks Up All Your Plans' by the award-winning author Melospiza

Erin said...

Hey, I hope things are okay. It is no longer MONDAY, anyway, so there's that.